A-S 380: Black and White Darkroom Photography I
Gelatin Silver Prints; 9″ x 6.5″ (not pictured)
Liquid Light Prints; 9″ x 6.5″
Liquid Light Prints w/ encaustic; 9″ x 6.5″
When she told me she was going through with the procedure, I was in Lexington. I was in shock and wasn’t sure how to respond. When it was time for surgery, I took a long weekend and went to her. I took her to the hospital, waited (ALONE) in the hospital while she was in sugary, stayed with her overnight, and took her home the next day. I was there when she had to bathe and change her bandages for the first time. I saw her mixed emotions of both fear and relief firsthand.
This piece focuses on insecurities in the media. The work display’s a female posing (accepting) and then re-covering one of her biggest insecurities. While she presents confidence and peace (1.5 years later), she is not open to share this part of her wit just anyone. The images contain a loss of identity for this reason. There is a present unknown. The images present a highly vulnerable and personal moment in time.
Insecurity exists as the media creates unrealistic ideals. The media skews and fogs the mind as the female is constantly affected by the stereotypes and “idealized images”. The pure black and white images represent the pure though and emotion that occurred in front of the camera, while the images covered in the wax add an internal emotional experience that exists in the recovery process (with self, both physically and emotionally). The mixed emotions are added to the surface. There is a progression in coverage happening in the black and white images, which creates a shift in emotion….and through these stages of masking and unmasking, come different emotional experiences (waxed).
“When it comes to changes in our bodies, no matter what a woman’s age, those changes will challenge how we see ourselves and our perception of how others see us. This can be especially true for women who have had a mastectomy or bilateral surgery since images in the media so often place a heavy emphasis on how women look.”